In Sunday's Gospel just before Jesus ascends to heaven he tells the disciples “…that repentance, for the forgiveness of sin would be preached in his name to all nations beginning from Jerusalem.” One theme that occurs in all three of today’s readings is, forgiveness is available to those who repent and believe in Jesus as their Savior. The word “repent” is often misunderstood. It seems to imply that we have already done something wrong, we are sorry and regret it, and we now commit ourselves to live in a new way. Repentance understood in this way, means to live beyond a sinful past.
Biblically, this is not quite what is meant. In the gospels, the particular word used for repentance is metanoia. The biblical word, “metanoia”, has much wider connotations. “Metanoia” comes from two Greek words: Meta, meaning above; and Nous, meaning mind. “Metanoia” invites us to move above our normal instincts, into a higher mindset. Literally, this means to do an about-face, to turnaround, to face in an entirely new direction. But in what direction are we called to turn to?
“Metanoia” invites us to move above and beyond our normal instincts. We are invited to turn around our lives to a high- er mindset that will allow us to rise above our natural inclination of self-interest and self-protection. When our egos or fear enter our lives they frequently trigger feelings of bitterness, negativity, and lack of empathy inside us. “Metanoia” invites us to meet all situations, however unfair they may seem, with humility, understanding, and an empathic heart.
We hear in today’s second reading “He (Jesus) is the expiation for our sins, not only our sins but the sins of the whole world.” The word expiation means the act of making amends or reparation for guilt or wrongdoing, Jesus has paid our debt, and he has died for our sins. But this is not the end of the story it is only the beginning. We are called to take the next step or Jesus' death is for naught. The next step is repentance, stepping away from sin and turning around our lives toward what is good and right. It is more than seeking forgiveness; it is seeking the right relationship with God.
Our sins have been forgiven and now we are called to conversion. We are to live our faith daily. Our turnaround is accomplished by daily picking up our own crosses through gestures of justice, reconciliation, and conversion. If we struggle with hate, loving acceptance will lead us to conversion. If we struggle with selfishness, putting the needs of others first will lead us to conversion. If we struggle with materialism, simplifying our lives will lead us to conversion. Find the one thing that is having the biggest negative impact on your life and work to turn it over to God.
We have traveled the 40 days of Lent, which was about forgiveness and mercy and we are now on our 50-day Easter journey, which will hopefully lead us to repentance and conversion. We are being called to turn around. We are being called to conversion from unbelief to belief, from fear to courage, from doubt to certainty, and ultimately from a separation from God to a right relationship. Let us move beyond our current mindset and beyond our present way of living.
We are a sensual people, we believe in what our senses can perceive. Let our eyes be open in order to see more deeply and spiritually; let our ears be open to hear things more compassionately, and let our mouths loosen in order to more freely speak words of reconciliation and love to one another. Lord, please turn around our lives to see, hear and speak not bitterness, hurt, and pettiness but rather compassion, gratitude, and praise.
Deacon Gil